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I've been in huge stressed lately...
when i was gunna make an appoinment yesterday they said my permit expired and when i was reading the info they said to renew it i gotta take it again which i dont want to cause it was freaken hard and the stress got to me when studying. im waiting for the call so i can ask if i can take the driving test without the renew of the permit since i am older than 18 and this will be my second time taking it not first. but unfortantily they gave me the news that i had to so on aug 5 i gotta take my writing test again...*sobs*
then also college which im so nervous since i will be starting on aug 25 and all my family are putting peer pressure on me which i know i gotta study when i get there and they are all making me more nervous
and then my mother who i feel due to the medications she has taken has caused her to be bipolar abit. one day she would be happy til the next she is selfish yelling angery and making me feel so bad of myself. im glad she is bk to work and her attitude changed abit from there but for the pass three months it had been hell and crying every night.
i may be happy talking with everyone and my lover helping me out through this situation but im just so thinking to much i couldnt sleep well, im not eating right, i feel like throwing up time to time. i feel so sick and dead inside im panicking and nervous break down time to time when im alone in my room.
im also been getting lots of negative things lately. i told some of my friends saying i want to be Loki for AX next yr from the dark world since i have his hair style when he was in prison and i do feel like dressing him since i love him and tom hiddleston. i loved loki not at this age but when i was young when i was first intruduced to comics. my uncle is and still is a mega dc/marvel/other comic geek collector and when i go and visit he lets me read his books and im also a whole geek girl tomboy when i was just young. im now a mega loki fan due to the avengers movie which tom did a wonderful job in it. but anyway after telling it to some of my friends, some say "ugh why him?" "that aint new" "wow just like every other fangirl" and laughing and giving me looks. And then they say In a dull tone "wow ur such a marvel fanatic. " or "all u ever talk about Is marvel". I would just wish to sew or shut my mouth. I do love marvel yes cause of Its wonderful stories and also I am a fanatic for It. I know I must be annoying so many ppl lately...I just wish I could be quiet anf never talk. Or maybe even mute..they would be abit better without me bragging so much of marvel or anime. Istood up for myself saying i want to because i want to but inside i do feel hurt and i tear so much. i feel just like him. being left out in alot of things.
also getting critizied at how i draw. i get like "why u draw the boobs too big" "why sexy?" "why do u have to have yaoi in it" "wow her boobs are huge." and laugh at my drawing. i just draw what i want to draw or when i get drawing commissions or request. I dont care of they turned out if i like them than im ok but still it kinda makes me feel horriable
ive been bobbling up all theses stress im losing it. i feel im gunna snap and never come back to reality.
im just in so much stress lately...*tears abit hugging my chibi avengers pillow*
BACK FROM ANIME EXPO 2015
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
I'm Back Everyone from Anime Expo 2015! I went there for 4 days straight! here's my updates on each day! I'm sorry it's super late but i barely just had the time to finally talk about my trip from Anime Expo 2015~
DAY 1 IN ANIME EXPO 2015
At last! the first day ended and it was horrible !!!! I disliked the new rules now we have to wait in a long ass line , in the blazing hot sun, and wait for 4-5 hours so it can open the hall! Last time they never did that ! I was sweating so much and my feet hurt as hell with the heels i wore T^T. So for all today i did nothing but lay my ass down on the floor and laid dead!. To
ANIME EXPO 2015 July 2-5
Hello Everyone!
I will be attending to ANIME EXPO 2015 yet again but this time for 4 days!
If you win to find me and say hello or chat or roleplay or etc, I will be cosplaying as Loki from Thor: The Dark World
I will be hanging out with two of my friends so if you see a Tobi hanging out with a short (since im tiny in height) Loki cosplayer, thats me!
I'll be walking around , exploring , going to booths(since i have a list of what i want to buy~!) , might be in the yaoi/yuri/hentai section , buying stuff or playing the new video game releases , roleplaying with anyone who wants to roleplay with me , might be posing if ppl wants to t
Attention Everyone...Please Read...(Update)
UPDATE ABOUT MY SITUATION
(if you haven't read the journal please read here->Attention Everyone...Please Read... )
Hello everyone. To let everyone know, i am getting a bit better after the horrible situation that occurred in my family about my Grandpa passing away. My mother and i were trying to find tickets to go to Nicaragua but we couldn't find any until our neighbor/friend’s family came to give us support and help us pay for the tickets. Unfortunately i couldn't go due to the allergies of mosquitoes i have when i go to other countries. I was worried and mixed with emotions my mom going alone but she wanted to, so i stayed with
Attention Everyone...Please Read...
Today is the most heartbreaken day of my life for me and my family. We recived a message from our family in Nicaragua that my Grandpa, who was 84 yrs old, passed away today at 4am. To this circumstances, we are deeply in sorrow at the moment. I haven’t seen him for 8 yrs and the last time i talked to him on phone was on father’s day. He was so kind and hilarious as he would always call the chicks "pew pew" since when i was 3 thats how i use to call them. He was a hard worker as well since in the area he lives is very poor and feeds over at least 10-15 families around the place, but everyone is like one big happy family.
We were p
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